I fell for the same shit more than enough times . That shit is so dumb. and im not a stupid person. i gotta stop disrespecting myself.

I tell myself i know what im doing. but hes doing it better. its like every time i think i have the upper hand 1up in the situation, i get knocked right off my yoshi or some shit. back to zero points.

 im not even sad. upset. at him.  i could give a fuck about him  but
im mad at myself.
i feel so stupid. so dumb. honestly.